Wednesday, November 17, 2010

Deep Fried Goodness....Sourdough French Bread....and A Juicy Burger OH MY!!!

I swear I think my mouth was watering just writing the title. OH man...How i love my relationships with food. The inevitable satisfaction I get when I take a bite of a juicy burger or spread butter on a slice of bread.. Wow...ok that was pretty damn sick. Isnt that what got me here? It is so frustrating to see others who eat whatever the hell they want and here I am gaining a pound just by watching them! It gets frustrating. You start to develop this weight gaining envy. It creates some type of complex in your mind. And eventually you are sitting down looking at them and don't even realize you are giving them the stink eye.

I remember when I was young I had such a fast metabolism. All the way up until I got preganant! That is when the curse started! However, I did love and adore being pregnant and am not at all blaming my pregnancy for my weight gain...oh wait I AM! ha ha. It was there that my problems began....

Picture this:
One dark stormy night (actually it was daytime and July, but this is more dramatic) I happened upon a handsome yet, arrogant man. After about an hour of "meeting" with him I had left. The life sucked out of me as I thought this was "romance" and then 6 weeks later found out I was pregnant. After that all hell broke loose. Eating ice cream in bed, scarffing down everything in sight. This is where my relationship with Reeses Peanut Butter Cups started...
So 60lbs later I gave birth to my beautiful little girl. At first I maintained a healthy weight at 167, but my relationship with my beloved food was too strong so here I am...
So, many diets later and sad attempts at weight loss I am trying the HCG. I have to say its fabulous! The first few days it was pretty hard, mild headaches, and I was starving, but now at Day 4 I feel fantastic! I am looking forward to a new way of life. I am slowly saying goodbye to my relationship with fried foods and bread oh yeah and sweets. If you are like me then you understand how difficult this may be. If you arent then you must think "WTF, Its just FOOD" but for me, the food was satisifying, then it was happiness, then sadness, then stress...It turned into my emotions. And its hard to break away. Just like quitting smoking (as I did last year) its in your system and takes a new way of life to get over.

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